A new start

Well, it was a little over four weeks ago when we started this journey, my little one. And while I was cautious, I was so very optimistic until my first doctor's appointment on Tuesday. But that's all going to change. What happened this past week - all the tears and heartache - is going to end. Your mommy is going back to the excited and positive mommy she was when this journey began!

You've proven the doctors wrong so far and for that I'm incredibly proud. I knew you were in there growing and growing. So what if it wasn't at the "normal" rate that most pregnancy's progress? I've always prided myself in not being normal so of course my pregnancy and my baby would be no different! :) ...

I'm a little sad that I didn't get to see you at yesterday's appointment, but seeing your daddy's face and hearing him describe you was good enough for this time around. And next time, I'll be sure to ask for another pillow or something because there's no way I'm missing seeing your little heart beat pulsating away! No way! And I have no doubts - NONE - that this will be the case!

I have a succinct feeling that pregnancies didn't always go down like this way back in the day. I doubt your grandmother had all the tests I've been having. I would venture to guess that when she became pregnant with me and your aunt and uncle, she was just pregnant and that was that. I mean, sure there was worry, but I really think what happened this past week was a ridiculous amount of added stress and worry that very well could've been avoided.

Don't get me wrong; I'm absolutely grateful to do whatever I have to do to ensure you grow and grow in the healthiest way possible, but really, this past week was so draining and hard and I'm just so proud of you for sticking it out with me and proving them all wrong. And yes, you're even worth the $90 I forked over yesterday for the prescription that should boost the progesterone. And yes, maybe without it things wouldn't progress the way I know they will... but still! It was quite a week.

But that was then and this is now...and tomorrow is the start of a new week with you. And what a beautiful week it will be!

XOXOXO