Tuesday, July 22, 2008

The big day

Well today's the day, my little blueberry. Today's the day I've been waiting for for almost three weeks now. I'm trying to remain calm and collected but the truth of the matter is that I'm quite anxious.

I *know* everything is fantastic with you. I know it is. I really do... but... there's that part of me... the part that reads too much stuff on the internet... too much of the not-so-positive stuff... the part of me that is scared to death that something will go wrong.

I'm doing everything I can to push all the negativity out of my mind and focus on the positive because that's my only option. That's *our* only option, little one.

I *know* you're perfect. I *know* you're growing and thriving in there. I *know* we'll see your little heart beating away today and I'm *sure* the doctor will be quite pleased with how fast it's beating.

I'm getting all teary eyed thinking about it. I can't wait! :)

Cousin/Auntie Katrina called me first thing this morning to wish us all well. She's so super excited about this... dare I say more than me? Hehe. I love her excitement. We've both waited so long to become mothers. We both talked about past cycles and how we hope we can break the bad stuff. She's confident I can break the bad stuff; I'm confident I can, too.

There's a reason this is happening now, little one. There's a reason I didn't have you sooner in life. I know that reason and I appreciate that reason. It's been a rough ride at times waiting for you, yearning for you, but now that the time has come, I completely understand it all.

You are so worth the wait. :)

Only 7 more hours till I get to see you!!


kathleen said...

Good luck today, little one! I can't wait for the update on your ultrasound.

Angie said...

Good luck! I know everything will be perfect. Blow a kiss to your blueberry for me!

Danielle said...

I can't wait for you to get home and update us. I am so excited for you and your super blueberry! :)

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